Loving a Stranger

Trying to love a stranger
The stranger in my skin
She looks like me, a little bit
But that's just where it ends
Trying to love this stranger
Unrecognizable at best
My fragile fight, my passive war
Where I have no rest
 
Trying to love a stranger
The stranger with my heart
She cries at silly things
And is better than me at art
Trying to love this stranger
Who swears much more than me
Bitter with deeper anger inside
Than I ever thought could be
 
Trying to love a stranger
My stranger with my name
And everyone knows but nobody will say
That nothing is the same
But she isnt mean, she isn't cruel
Just tougher and more closed off
But this stranger could tell you more than I could
About what it means to love
 
Not ready to admit it yet
That she is what I've become
But one day I'll accept it
One day ill feel at home
But now my best friends a stranger
Eats with me, sleeps with me in bed
Because trauma killed the child
But spared the woman, now, instead