Don’t want to follow that trail back
Don’t want to be reminded of the courage I lack
Don’t want to see their faces and remember what they did
I’ve pulled myself straight up this cliff
I’m afraid what will happen if I let go, what if
The way up again will be just as barren and cracked?
The agony, loneliness and tears
The darkness, hopelessness, and fear
Are what I see when I look behind
Why do I have to face it?
Why must I turn and chase it?
When the pain still, won’t even leave my mind
I’ve reached the top of the mountain
Why do I have to look down?
Forgiveness is a treasure to be protected it’s true
But can’t I forgive from a distance like I do
Can’t I move on without damaging this delicate balance of sanity?
Healing from this was the hardest thing I ever did
I don’t think I can bear to go back and look at it
Promise me I you won’t make me do it unless you help me