Freedom to Be

I'm living in a new world with a language I must learn though they say it belongs to me
It does not
A rehearsal is required for every word I speak, a rehearsal inside my head
I am caught
An intense longing to be seen as I am and their faces every time I try
Discouraged
I fight hard to lift myself up, to summit this height which demands all my heart
I need courage
Nowhere a place where eyes can be closed, emotions just felt, tears can just fall
It is lost
The art of feeling beyond all judgment, childlike wonder nowhere found on cement
And the cost
The cost it is me; confused and alone, desperate for clarity
Only seen
Somewhere is it safe to feel, to cry, to laugh
Some cold dark corner just to be