I wrote this piece in August 2014. Many hard things happened to me and around me at that time and I found myself asking questions that often whirred through my head but never surfaced. This was my attempt to express them.
Mental
If I had a mental breakdown
Would they still love me?
If I screamed everything I’ve always wanted to scream
Would they still hear me?
If they saw the billion thoughts that go through my head
Would they still know me?
Mental
If I ran away, forgetting all the lives who depend on me
Would I ever again be trusted?
If I gave up all the things I’ve worked for
Would I get anywhere?
If I showed them who I really am
Would I be anybody?
Mental
An introvert with social anxiety
Who lives in a world that exists in her head
Cannot bear noise and afraid of stillness
In the night sounds in her bed
Living in a place of adventure or nothing
There is no in between
With nothing but a love of a Father
And a wild world of dreams
Wake me up to the sunrise
Shimmering in colors on the ocean
Let me never awake to this dull world of darkness
Where I feel so alone
If I let myself go, could I do that?
If I were selfish would I be forgiven?
Who am I?
Something more
Than Mental
Mental
If I had a mental breakdown
Would they still love me?
If I screamed everything I’ve always wanted to scream
Would they still hear me?
If they saw the billion thoughts that go through my head
Would they still know me?
Mental
If I ran away, forgetting all the lives who depend on me
Would I ever again be trusted?
If I gave up all the things I’ve worked for
Would I get anywhere?
If I showed them who I really am
Would I be anybody?
Mental
An introvert with social anxiety
Who lives in a world that exists in her head
Cannot bear noise and afraid of stillness
In the night sounds in her bed
Living in a place of adventure or nothing
There is no in between
With nothing but a love of a Father
And a wild world of dreams
Wake me up to the sunrise
Shimmering in colors on the ocean
Let me never awake to this dull world of darkness
Where I feel so alone
If I let myself go, could I do that?
If I were selfish would I be forgiven?
Who am I?
Something more
Than Mental