Mental

I wrote this piece in August 2014. Many hard things happened to me and around me at that time and I found myself asking questions that often whirred through my head but never surfaced. This was my attempt to express them.


Mental

If I had a mental breakdown

Would they still love me?

If I screamed everything I’ve always wanted to scream

Would they still hear me?

If they saw the billion thoughts that go through my head

Would they still know me?

Mental

If I ran away, forgetting all the lives who depend on me

Would I ever again be trusted?

If I gave up all the things I’ve worked for

Would I get anywhere?

If I showed them who I really am

Would I be anybody?

Mental

An introvert with social anxiety

Who lives in a world that exists in her head

Cannot bear noise and afraid of stillness

In the night sounds in her bed

Living in a place of adventure or nothing

There is no in between

With nothing but a love of a Father

And a wild world of dreams

Wake me up to the sunrise

Shimmering in colors on the ocean

Let me never awake to this dull world of darkness

Where I feel so alone

If I let myself go, could I do that?

If I were selfish would I be forgiven?

Who am I?

Something more

Than Mental