Hold my hand up to feel my quickly beating heart
Force water down my throat, tell myself to talk to somebody
In the morning
Is this a regular thing?
Will I ever get better,
will I always be the same
Am I trapped in these nightmares
doomed to repeat them again
Thought that I would be free of this and her and it
But it's just the same shit, on repeat
As I try to survive I ask who on earth is me?
Called my family to talk me down, another episode
These things are so common, it's getting old
Tell myself it will be okay, just take a bit more time on the weekend
But it doesn't freakin end!
Will food ever gets its flavor back
Will I always be so slow
I thought I was getting better
Shows how little I know
Can I just pray for hours again?
Or drink a glass of wine
But it hasnt gone away it's just changed
But at least I dont still wanna die