I Don't Regret It

​Yesterday, she heard me say
I wish I hadn’t done it
I wish this year hadn’t been so heard to bear
So full of pain and shit
But tonight I find, as the year is almost done
No feelings of resentment
Despite the trauma and personality change
I don’t regret it
 
I don’t regret the battles I fought
Even when I lost
I’ve saved lives this year
And I’ve become a boss
I had to give control a few times,
Well several up to God
And despite the way my brain has changed
I’m proud of what it cost
 
I’m not the same girl no more
Maybe lost a bit of spirit
But I’m still loving, kind and now I’m sure
I’ll get up though I’ve been hit
It’s not like how it used to be
But humans are resilient
And I’m smiling now as I say
I truly don’t regret it
 
I don’t regret the battles I fought
Even when I lost
I’ve saved lives this year
And I’ve become a boss
I had to give control a few times,
Well several up to God
And despite the way my brain has changed
I’m proud of what it cost
 
 
Even if my love meant nothing
I stayed true to who I am
I can leave this year smiling
Saying I am a powerful woman
And maybe I lost my mind this year
But I never did lose God
I don’t regret it, not one thing I did
I’m proud of what it cost